Monday, April 30, 2012

Cliche but true....

Mama needs a break. A serious break. I have just spent the last two and a half months being the primary caretaker of my spirited (ahem) stubborn almost two year old and I'm going to be honest with you...that's freakin' tough! I had more than enough help between my sisters and my mom but it's just not the same as if I was sharing the normal parenting duties with Tyler. I can't expect those auntie's and grammies to discipline like I do or follow the exact same schedule I do either, and quite frankly after relying on them for all of my child care while at work I would feel too guilty to ask any of them to watch her while I went and saw a movie with friends or even spent time without her with each other. In fact the entire time I was down there (Florida) my sisters, mom and I never did anything just us. They would watch her if I needed to run a quick errand and trust me when I tell you....if I had just asked they would have done it without even batting an eye. But I couldn't. I felt too guilty. Why is that?! I'm not really one to embrace all of these silly cliche sayings (no matter how true they sound) like "pregnancy brain" and a myriad of other dorky sayings. But I'll tell you this. "Mommy guilt" is real. It really really is! I assist my photographer friend, Jaci ( at her workshops and there's one coming up over Memorial Day weekend. I'll be gone for about five days and I'm contemplating not taking Emery with me. We're staying at Jaci's parents super awesome farm and all I can think is..."Oh man, she'd love to see the chickens and cows and other random farm animals." Every time we've gone away and leave her with family I'm always sad to have left her behind. There's just something about being able to sleep uninhibited and just feed my soul with some serious alone time that makes me want to bite the bullet and do it. I'll keep you posted. He he.

1 comment:

  1. Mommy guilt is SO real. I can completely understand where you are coming from on this. It's so good to have some time away when no one needs you. I hope it works out for you to go with Jaci and leave Emery behind. But either way, I'm sure you'll have a blast!