Prior to actually "hitting the road" to home at around 10:00 PM, we had to stop at Walmart to pick up at least a couple things that would get us through our first night with Emery. I purchased, a pack of bottles, pacifiers, Funyuns, bottled water, and beef jerky. Obviously the last three were for us. Meanwhile back at the ranch my two sisters and brother in law were eagerly awaiting our arrival, even if it meant that we wouldn't get there until 1:00 in the morning. When we pulled into our driveway they had decorated the mailbox with "It's a girl!" balloons! They (and my mama, and my friend Fran) had also gone to Target and stocked us with diapers, wipes, blankets, bath stuff, and clothes...it was so amazing. Once they had gotten a chance to hold her it was bed time. Which was the strangest part of the whole experience...I was heading down the hall to a bedroom that I inhabited with only one other person and tonight there would be a little stranger in the bassinet. It was so surreal. It was probably a good thing we didn't go to bed until 3:00 because I probably would have tossed and turned until then anyway. The next morning we woke up and brought her into bed with us, it was magic. Then I realized very quickly that I had a baby that was relying on me for everything and thus began freak out mode. . This day is one that I don't ever want to forget. The enormity of becoming a parent is something I never want to forget. Here we are the three of us, one year later and I couldn't imagine my every day without her in it. I have learned so much about myself because of her. I am capable.
The amount of support we received from friends and family during our journey is honestly something that I can't speak enough of. To know there were people who we didn't even know praying for our success in starting our family through adoption is overwhelming. There are so many people who love our girl, so many people who will play an important role in her life and her story. She is loved beyond measure especially by this mama.
To my little lovey: You have made more happy than I could have ever imagined possible. Your belief in me has strengthened my belief in myself. You will always know and hear that we love you and could never have lived another day without you.