Thursday, October 7, 2010

Coming to terms with "not the same"...

My "normal" first time as a mother is unlike any other...it's all mine, and Emery's of course. There isn't a single thing I would change. My sister said something interesting tonight after a less than stellar turn out at my first ever, first time mama baby shower..."I just wanted you to have everything in this experience that a first time mom would have". That is something I'm coming to terms with. I missed the first 4 months of my daughter's life, I only had 3 hours to plan for her arrival, I had to fundraise for her, save all my pennies for her, and not know who she was for a whole year. These are all things that make up The Ballad of Emery Brooke. She's one of a kind, she's unconventional. When you think back on the dream of motherhood it almost never involves registering by yourself at Babies R Us while your four month old sleeps at home. However, it almost always involves the beginning of an amazing journey of self discovery as a new mom.

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