Sunday, May 23, 2010

Focusing on the purpose of this journey...

I'm scared. I'm not gonna lie. I'm apprehensive, but curious. This process is a lot more involved and a lot more invasive than just a regular adoption (believe it or not). Because the original intent is to place these children with us temporarily they have to be extra cautious. They even want neighbor references! We're moving in about 5 weeks, and we don't really know our current neighbors...what does that say about us??? In my opinion, nothing, we live in a townhouse community and didn't have neighbors on either side for almost a year and a half but will they think that's weird? I guess what they're looking for is our neighbors to tell them if the cops are here all the time and if we have all night raves or something. I have to remain focused on the reasons why we're doing this, why we feel the need to do this. We both have a passion to help children who are in familial situations NOT of their choosing. The child did not choose who their parents would be, or that they'd have to be in foster care because none of their other family would take them. Whether or not I can pinpoint the exact moment where I thought to myself..."one day I want to be a foster mom", I can pinpoint multiple times in my life where I thought..."I want to help children with behavioral issues become who they really want to be in life, and not allow their sucky originating circumstances dictate their future". The purpose is to offer a stable home environment to a child who doesn't even know what that looks like. To offer love to a child who, once again, doesn't even know what that looks like....

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