Monday, April 5, 2010

In it to win it...

We had a little meltdown the other day. Ok so I'll be honest...I had a little meltdown the other day, Tyler watched in awe how I can go from 0-60 in 10 seconds. We have a lot on our plate as mentioned in a previous post. We can handle a lot of things going on but we've got a few MAJOR stressers that have really been taking their toll on us and finally it just got to be too much for me to internalize and it all just came pouring out. One of the biggest things that Tyler and I struggle with in our relationship is that he is a realist through and through, and I am a dreamer. I like to assume the best outcome in a situation and he always prepares for the worst, which always makes for some pretty heated discussions. What is truly amazing about this process is that we absolutely need that from each other, his realism keeps me in check with things and my dreaming allows him some sort of fun in this situation. At the end of the day with almost baby, there wasn't anything we could have done differently, we couldn't blame each other for the outcome, we only had each other to embrace and cry with. I had to ask him the other night if this is still what he wanted. I was terrified he might say no and list a million reasons why this isn't going to work, and instead he looked at me puzzled and said "yes, of course!". SO, we continue moving forward with what seems to be the impossible. We pray that God will continue to show us that this is how he wants us to start our family. We pray for miracles.

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