Thursday, March 25, 2010

Impatience personified...

Its been six months. We started searching for agencies six months ago. Six...long...months. I'm sad, frustrated and impatient. I feel like we've been standing still for a couple months, nothing is changing, our grants have fallen through, our coffee sales are non existent, and we can only save so much you know? It's not like in the next two months if we cut out some things in our budget that $13000 will suddenly appear, no matter how hard we try. I haven't heard from fab social worker in a couple weeks and I miss her, which is weird. She's my direct line to mommyhood and I miss her, even though I mentioned in a previous post that my writing denial emails to her were my least favorite thing. There are so many things going on in our lives right now, the church plant we helped start is planning a kick butt Easter service, we're paying down some debt, Tyler is looking for a vehicle again, we're planning a family vacation mid July, we're moving in June-ish, and I feel like I'm planning all these things and they are moving forward except the adoption. I wanted our baby to be here by now, I wanted to bring maybe baby with us when we see tons of family in July, to move in and decorate a room that can be gender specific....
Sorry I don't have anything super positive or life changing to write about today. Count this as my every couple months mope post. I'm just tired of waiting, I want to have and to hold my child...now, not later.
I miss you maybe baby. I don't know you yet but I need you already.

We prove ourselves by our purity, our understanding, our patience, our kindness, by the Holy Spirit within us, and by our sincere love.

2 comments:

  1. Kari,
    I know it's hard to share the bad with the good, but I'm glad you are.

    (((((Hugs)))))

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  2. Thanks girl...I'm glad you read it!

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