This whole process has taken such a dramatic turn in the last few weeks that sometimes I forget that we’re on a whole different path. I still think it’s so strange that possibly in a few short months we’ll have a baby screaming at us! I can’t think of anything more fantastic than a brand spankin’ new baby screaming for ME, not anyone else (well Tyler too but you know what I mean), just me, wanting to be soothed by their mama. So weird, so awesome.
I sometimes wonder why God changed our path. I'll probably ask him that when I get to heaven, wonder what kind of disaster he saved us from or maybe no disaster at all, he just has THE right child here for us in Florida. We were always so sure that international adoption was the way God wanted us to go with adoption...and I’m just so curious as to what He has in store for us through this domestic adoption process.
We’ve officially sent off our first grant application. We are so hoping that out of all the grants we’ll apply for that we’ll receive something towards our adoption fees, anything really at this point is worth the time it takes to put together all of the information for the grant packets! YIKES! For now, I’ll continue dreaming of my future screaming infant, the one who will be screaming for ME....
James 1:4-6 Let your patience show itself perfectly in what you do. Then you will be perfect and complete and will have everything you need. 5 But if any of you needs wisdom, you should ask God for it. He is generous to everyone and will give you wisdom without criticizing you. 6 But when you ask God, you must believe and not doubt. Anyone who doubts is like a wave in the sea, blown up and down by the wind.